I still think of times i had with you guys

Each and everyone of you back in secondary school. I've been insomniac for the past few nights, and all i think about are those wonderful happy happy times that i dreadfully miss.

And of course, it includes you, Aaron. That dream i had about you. Thanks.

For those who didnt read about my dream i posted on his facebook wall here it is. The day i remembered about what i dreamt, i had just had to post it up - right before catching the bus. I couldn't just leave it in my head.

so the dream went like this:

I was just standing there, facing this blank grey wall. Someone standing to my left, i couldn't make out who. I was just minding my own business and then this guy, familiar face - a face i knew i missed. He popped up from behind the wall I was facing. On him was a red polo, donned with thin horizontal white stripes. It took me a moment to realise who this guy was.

With a blank look, he handed me a pink box (very much like those cake boxes). Smiled and disappeared behind the very same wall. Confused much? VERY. I stood there holding that box - very very confused.

Seconds later, that guy, that devil of a guy. He came back behind the wall, "JUST JOKING LAH!" I was still pretty much confused. I smiled nonetheless. Blissed because he heard me and decided to give me a quick visit. He put his arm around me, started talking (cant remember about what). Right before he disappeared, he said, "So you're behaving right? I know you are. Keep it up! Be a good girl kay?" (there's a reason this means so much to me)

Guys, if you saw what you say you'd know he was in a much better place. His face was just beaming. It was seriously glowing, and he had the biggest, most genuine smile I've ever witness. It was so vivid, i cannot and will not forget that image.

And when i looked back at the box, it was a bowl. An orange bowl - very much like those kopitiam kolo mee bowls. "yes, he remembered our promise to enjoy a bowl of authentic kuching kolo mee together when i get back."

I miss you aaron. you know that. XD

One reason this meant so much to me is, not only did i 'asked' for a visit when i really missed him, but when i did - Jesse and Morgan told me being the person he was , he'd probably prank or surprised me. He did exactly that. And it's mind blowing. Including that bowl of kolo mee.

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And the rest of you guys! You know who you are, and even the ones who think they're not one of those im mentioning. When i say you guys, i meant it. All of you. 5A. 3B. I count my blessings everyday - and thank the good Lord i have such wonderful and accepting friends in the world.

Yes world, be jealous. BE F****** jealous. I have the BEST FRIENDS on earth. notice the s? PLURAL MUDAFUKKA. They are all F****** fantastic, you have no idea how amazing they are. Always there when you need them. And when you tell them something you fear might put them of, they surprise you and love you even more.

Best fucking friends in the world.

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and as for my family. I never dared say how much i miss you guys - mainly because you idiots guys have some sort of unwritten policy to hardly say a word about missing each other or something. But damn, do i miss my brother. I was disappointed when he told me earlier that he might not be going back to Kch this year.

Little sis, you idiot - you'll get a good sisterly beating first thing i see you.

Old hag of an older sister - i love you, but let me help you! and tell me you love me too.

Mom - i've always told you and you know. sorry i get on your nerves too much, but sometimes you have to compromise.

Dad - i want to spend more time with you! D8 Like, sitting in front of the tv set and just watching a movie quietly - and then you with your comments on how ridiculous the movie and actors are.

<3

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and i couldnt have asked for more when i met this girl - who is like a sister to me here. yasmin you ga7ba - this will sound gay. and it is. Im sooooo happy i have someone here who understands and accept me like the people back home. so im glad i met you , you nigga. HAHHA.

imsomniac now. i will try to sleep to wake up early to work on my portfolio.

slept during september

Realized that i didnt update zit during september. And no one woke me up when it ended as well. =(

I woke up myself. nyahah.

Well, finals are in a months time. Gotta sort everything - get back on track. Everything seems to be going well. Studies and all. Picking up slowly. Just hoping i dont somehow lose my mojo.

pls pls.

My bed awaits. Feeling tired after school these few days. Been waking up at 6am and earlier automatically. Feels good. Feels real good.

Missing you guys. XOXO

sick

I somehow managed to catch strep throat from my dear friend, yasmin. =.= Yes, it's infectious. SO i shouldnt go school unless i want to be blamed for giving half the college my sickness.

Great thing is, it's a friday, and i have two more days to heal without my attendence dropping.

Thanks to Panadol night, i finally got rid of that 2 day headache and decent rest. I reallly really dont like my immune system. Back of my throat there are ulcer look a likes everywhere. Disgusting. It looks like it's rotting. D8 so effin horrible. And i went online to learn more about it? The antibiotics given wouldnt neccessarily speed up the healing process - just stop it from being infectious. *sigh*

cant swallow without pain. cant spit without pain. ughh. And i cant eat till im satisfied because that might be too much and i might puke it all out and get hungry again. =(

argh. fml.

oh water!

i spilled a whole litre's worth of water on my carpet last night, and i didnt know. now it's all wet. =(

and omg, someone flyy me to arizona now! My love is waiting for me there! XDD

"love doesnt share itself with the world. love is suspicious. love is needy. love is fearful. love is greedy.

my friends, there is no great love without great jealousy." ~ bender

*i know that totally contradicts my opinion of polyamoric relationships, but it's so true, i have to share it*

Long live futurama.

p/s : leela is hot.

i friggin love art classes

I just love my art periods with my teacher, Jane. She's the coolest teacher EVER. The thing is she appreciates her students art works , so that means our works are on the wall in the college.

yep. It makes me feel good,.. like.. realllly goood. I have two of my woodcuts in the computer lab, one done on a canvas, near the library, and a huge A2 sized one , framed, in th

e principle's office.

ahhah big deal really. no one really looks at them Other students have their art up, esp Yasmin's, because she does really decorative ones.

yasmin, epitome of crazy.

And recently she painted her face, and i collabed by taking the photos! Jane's hubby, Ted,blew the pictures up, HUGE. i'll get pictures of them soon.

These are the ones, i think.

she does really amazing stuff this girl!

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btw, had the best time last week end climbing up (literally, we got tired of keeping to the walking track, we decided to just climb up the steep hills. uber fun!) mount victoria in devonport. beautiful day it was!

so high up you can see the curve of the earth! that's jacklyn (who shares an uncanny resemblence to ling nie) , from penang!

XD

The beauty myth : Naomi Wolf

Currently reading : The beauty myth. Just 20 pages in, and im already stopping to step back and digest the information slowly - because it is that mindblowing.

Well, that's if you're a feminist. But i got my bubble burst, because seriously, no one is really spared. As long as makeup, weight , heels and cute clothes are involved - women still dont have complete freedom.

If you're thinking that it's a choice to dress up? Guess what? The media has bent your thinking into it is totally your choice. Read it, and think again.

And then again, it's a contradiction, because women now are rejoicing their bodies WITH makeup, a good figure , heels and cute clothes. Either that the thinking has been definitely altered with.

HMM??

Finally, a book im going to read till the end.

cheers.